Life comes at you fast. This statement has never been more accurate in my 22 years of being alive. In fact, I think it is safe to say that life also comes at you chaotically, stressfully, and overwhelmingly. We have been in school for a little over a month and after basically an entire month of Theta rush activities, on top of the menial 12 hours I am taking, combined with my internship at the church, and along with my Theta and ICC presidencies, Fall Break cannot come soon enough! Actually, I think I'm ready for Christmas Break.
Theta First Day of School 2009
With all the chaos and stress this past month entailed, I have found that my priorities have been juggled around tremendously; and, although I have been aware of this drastic priority alteration, I have yet to do anything about it. My six weeks grades will prove that my academics have definitely taken a backseat to Theta and my cluttered and stressful life surely indicates that my relationship with God has taken a backseat to almost everything else. It is because of this shift in priorities that I have been anxiously awaiting Fall Break. I need a break from all the distractions that have gotten me to this point of apathy. In the past week alone I can count at least five times that I have said, "I just don't care." I am so overwhelmed that I have stopped caring about some very important aspects of my life; which, in case you don't know, is very uncharacteristic of me.
For the first time in a long time I am desperately looking forward to the boring two-hour drive to Cordell with nothing to see except as far as the eye can see. There are no major highways in Cordell and there are no buildings over three stories tall. There is nothing in Cordell to write home about and that is why I love it. I love that I can see four different towns from the balcony at my house. I love that I cannot go anywhere without seeing someone that I not only know, but who has a genuine interest in my life. I love that as soon as I pull in the driveway Liko will be waiting to greet me. I love that I will get to see my little sister cheer for the first time. I love that I will get to sleep in my own bed and be awaken only by the little sliver of light that comes through the window in my bedroom.
My Backyard
Liko
I need a break. This semester has been full of change and transition. And while I am not opposed to change, I find that I sometimes have trouble transitioning. I have gone from a member of Theta to the president of Theta. I have gone from simply being best friends with my best friend to living with her. I have gone from simply attending Sunday and Wednesday church services to planning them. I have gone from being "just friends" to "more than just friends" and back again. I have gone from mostly A's to mostly B's. I have gone from daily Bible reader to "Sunday only" Bible reader. I have experienced so many new things and have been given so many wonderful opportunities and in the midst of it all I have lost sight of the most important things in my life: God and my family. I am eager to get back to where I need to be, but I am nervous that I will not get there. And if I do get there, will I be able to stay there?
I am ready for a break and I am ready to regroup. I am ready to get my priorities back in order and I am ready to get rid of all the stresses that are weighing me down. I am ready to care again.
“Then Jesus said, ‘Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest.”’
-Matthew 11:28
-Matthew 11:28
